Fitz, we all change, as Taz says, life is life sober or loaded, the perception is the difference and how the drink acts as a catalyst to even worse outcomes.... life is what we make it. You have my thoughts and good wishes, like detox, it will get better and whatever happens all the wise heads (not speaking about me!) are here to lend support and a 'healthy' perspective.... keep on the path of enlightenment, you know it is the right path....