Originally Posted by
sclarke64448 
I think that time it was a defence mechanism as I was quite frightened at the time. It was like a reflex. The second and third time was due to him pushing me to emotional breaking point.
And this is the man you're pining over? It sounds like he was playing with you - like one of my cats with a spider. So cruel. Why did you keep going back for more?
I abhor violence towards anyone. It just isn't justified except in self defence. Sorry if I came on too strong.