More problems in the motivation to stop drinking department, and also feelings of lonliness, like I'd love to have some in person support, but am afraid to try AA, as it went poorly in the past, and seemed very weird/culty. Not sure if I'd rather just keep drinking, than endure that. Confused, and also have been acutely lonely during the day, at work, driving, much of the day. Not sure I will meet many/any of my life goals, so am not sure I want to live. Not sure about so much, now.
HP