yeahgr8

Thought some people might be able to relate to this no matter what their DOC is, i have left it as it was written...a friend from NA gave a copy to me:

I hate meetings. I hate higher power.
I hate anyone who has a program.
To all who come into contact with me, i wish
you death...
And i wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself.
I am the disease of alcholism and drug
addiction.
Cunning, baffling and powerful. That's me.
I have killed millions, and i am pleased.
I love to catch you with the element of surprise.
I love pretending I am your friend and lover.
I have given you comfort, have i not?
Wasn't I there when you were lonely?
When you wanted to die, didn't you call me? I
was there.
I love to make you hurt.
I love to make you cry. Better yet,
I love to make you numb so you can neither hurt
or cry.
You can't feel anything at all. This is true
glory...
I will give you instant gratification
And all i ask of you is long term suffering.
I've been there for you always.
When things were right in your life, you
invited me.
You said you didn't deserve theese good things.
And i was the only one who would agree with
you.
Together we were able to destroy all things
good in your life.
People don't take me seriously.
They take strokes seriously, heart attacks,
Even Diabetes they take seriously, fools that
they are.
They don't know that without my help.
These things would not be made possible.
I am such a hated disease.
And yet, i do not come uninvited. You choose to
have me.
So many have chosen me over reality and
peace.
More than you hate me,
I hate all of you who have a 12-step program.
Your program, your meetings, your higher
power.
All weaken me and i can't function in the
manner
I am accustomed to.
Now I must lie here quietly.
You don't see me, but i am growing bigger
than ever.
When you only exist, i may live. When you
live, i only exist.
But i am here...and until we meet again,
If we meet again...i wish you death and
suffering.