Thank you guys for your support!
The problem that I'm having is understanding WHY would he be on methadone for a 1,5 and than go to detox by his choice and go through all this hell why would he mess up? His mother is a doctor and she was bringing him pills to ease his pain like muscle relaxers and pills from restless legs(non addicting). It just doesn't get through my head why would you ruin it all? Yes it was hard but thats not a reason to relapse.......
I haven't talked to him in 2 days, he texts me that he loves me every day.... I know that if I'm going to reply it would be harder for me to forget about him.
I haven't told any of the guests yet about the wedding cancellation.. And its really hard when they are asking you about the wedding and a bridal shower and everything else......