we are all human.. i have also been in and out for years. i have much experience with A.A. people who i have known for 20 years now (some) a very important lesson i learned long ago was-- never put someone up upon a pedestal because they are human beings.. as much as i love them i have seen them fall.. i understand how baffling it is to many. i know i don't know it all.. and i know i never will! ODAAT! peace.. (great post!)