Posting on here that you are doing better or that you relapsed on comet cleanser is not going to help you with your problem. The savvy posters use this forum to get suggestions and support with following through with those suggestions. I do not see that you are willing to take any suggestions. Many have posted that you need to see a doctor but you have yet to do so. We are not physicians (most of us anyway) and therefore cannot assess the danger that you are putting yourself in. Comet is 84% calcium carbonate, a chemical tha tis highly craved in people with PICA (see chalk-eating) so there may be an underlying medical issue here that we are not qualified to help with. If you want to stop, and stop for good, PLEASE see a doctor.