Behind the keyboard... he can be anybody he wants to be... in real life he could be your worst nightmare. Please be careful!
If this online relationship is draining you and causing you so much grief and heartache... can you possibly imagine how much worse it would be if you fly to be with him? You cannot change him... only he can change himself.
Remember the 3 C's of addiction:
You didn't Cause it
You can't Control it
You can't Cure it
Honey, please ready all the sticky posts at the top of this forum. Learn all you can about addiction so you know what you are dealing with. Keep reading and posting. There is so much good knowledge, support and encouragment to be found here.
(((HUGS)))) Sorry you are hurting so much but glad you're here!