Lostnhurt,
Welcome. I'm sorry for why you posted but I know that the experience, strength and hope you'll find on this forum will help you cope.
My son is the addict in my life, he is 28 yrs old and currently living in a sober house going to out patient treatment 3 days a week.
If you can, check out NarAnon or AlAnon meetings. I attend one meeting of each a week. When I first went to a NarAnon meeting it really depressed me, I didn't even go back for about 3-4 months. But I have been going faithfully for a little over a year now and my fellow meeting attendees are like family to me now. I've been going to AlAnon for about 2 years and am really getting into the groove of the program working for me (I was slow to give up and let go!)
Good luck and stay close to this forum, it helps!