Could I please sek some advice from the wise in this forum. I am feeling really dislocated from life. From my family and friends and feel like I want to be by myself more and more. I have been sober on and off and currently off. The longest sober was 100 days.
I am really down on myself for drinking again and blame circumstances such as my wife finally telling she no longer wishes to work on reconciliation. She had a long holiday and did not contact me during it and on her return I contacted her when she let me have the news.
I don't wish to go on and on but I need to find that motivation again to keep going ahead and to refuse that drink and ignore that voice that tells me it is okay. I have been in inpatient rehab but no meetings outside that.