J I see a shrink and I take meds. I think it was very wize of you too look up your medication yourself to see what was what. I never ever take anything that is addictive... I might like it too much! Remember too it's your body,so you have the right to say what goes in it. For the most part Jay medication is all about trial and error and I do not know of any one to get the right kind and the right dose the first time on medication. If I do not like the medication and it's effects on me, for the most part I tell my shrink and I try something else or I toss them down them toilet then tell my shrink. I take medication to improve my life or my dealings with life. Anyway, AA is a suggestion not a must. It's a good idea,but don't beat yourself up if your not into going. There are lost of listings here on SR for all different types of recovery based programs. As I see it, your talking to your doctor,your coming here, so you are working some sort of program... Keep up the good work!