Maggie,
I lost my son at 20 yrs old.
It has been 10 yrs ago now for me.
Your 9 months is still very fresh and raw.
I made up my mind that I would show how much I hated Eric's death by showing the value of life by trying to live mine full out.
There was a very long gap between making that decision and starting to act upon it.
I typed and typed and typed each and everything over and over in the grief forum to help me work through it.
That helped me find closure better than anything, I think.
I had to get it out of my head.
I didn't like being told I was strong because I survived it.
I didn't have choice in that matter!
So, know that my thoughts are with you and that
with time you will heal in your own way and in your own time.
hugs,
Tena