Oh yes there is FEAR, SHAME, GUILT, regret and whatever else you can throw at this addict (so,this allows me to see that I still have work to do). I am an addict - through and through. I think that it is correct to think that I may be heading for trouble by harbouring these feelings. Bottom line: I don't want to F*&K up what I have worked so hard to get - SERENITY (obviously a smaller piece than those who attend meetings but a great deal more peace than what I had) Because this is such a small town there is only one meeting a week - Tuesdays - and I will go. Thank you to everyone who posted their "balls out" honest opinion and pinning me with what I couldn't see about myself - it is exactly what I needed. I will let you kow how it goes.
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