Fud:
I strongly suggest that if you get too anxious being in with others (i.e., at meetings) struggling with this disease trying to do the same things you are, that you find some friends where you live who you can confide in about what is going on. Even if you WERE crazy, even crazy people need person to person contact and validation for their reality. There are small meetings that may suit your personality; web advice is o.k., but we humanoids need that personal contact. :sombrero: