Hi again Sara
I think you belong here.
I never carried a flask but I did most things with booze - it was my complement to everything - but it stopped doing what I wanted it to do....it didn't take the pain away anymore, it didn't make me forget, I got sicker and sicker with or without it, and I needed more and more just to feel some kind of normal....
it's not easy to get out that cycle but it's possible - if you want it.
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