Notofeudalism,
I think what people are trying to figure out is are you here seeking help and encouragement or what? I am sorry you went through a hard time and that you were suicidal and treated like sh*it from the cops, BUT in all honesty, a minute amount of alcohol can impair your judgement (and yes, talking on the phone, texting, being tired etc etc can do the same as well), alcoholic or not, so I am glad you were pulled over. I would want my own self to be pulled over as well...anyway...Do you wanna talk about why you were suicidal? Are you getting some help?
~Jade