Thanx, Anna,
No, I really don't have much of a support system- my degree is in teaching, and you can imagine the stigma of having an "addict" label! My dad is an active alcoholic, so no one in my family talks about addictions of any kind. The one thought that has kept me going is that I know I'm a good teacher- I'm not bragging, but I can reach the kids that other teachers have given up on. Now, though, with no job prospects (budget cutbacks, you know), I'm having trouble focusing on that. I just remember how nice it was to NOT feel the lonliness and pain... is there something wrong with me, because I miss being high? Everyone here seems so happy to be sober, but I haven't had one single day that I didn't think about being high, at least in passing?