Hi,
You are not alone. Sorry you are having a tough time. Keep reaching out. I guess just try to remember that a drink or drug is not going to make anything better. Instead of having 10 problems now, you'll have 11 if you pick up. So I guess you know what kinds of support there are for people like us out there. If you even found something that worked maybe give that a try. Or just keep hangin around here. Remember there is always light at the end of the tunnel. Hang in.
H