Hi Searching. Thanks for you interesting post. Dee is correct, no one can tell you if you are an alcoholic - the phenomenon of denial will prevent you from accepting it so it's pointless. The red flag I noticed was you said you had blackouts due to alcohol use (well its alcohol abuse really) - this is not a good sign. If you decide you have a problem, then I suggest you read as many threads on here as possible, and maybe consider recovery programs such as AA (not for everyone to be sure). Best of luck to you Searching, I hope you find some answers that might help you.
Last edited by December15; 08-15-2009 at 06:09 AM.