We are unable, at certain times, to bring
into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the
suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago. We are
without defense against the first drink."
sufficient force.......
for me that sufficient force is not being able to connect to the emotions..the suffering and humiliation.
sure i remember some of the "event" ..but it has no "meat" to it.
just an event...
mind you... i returned to drinking so often that much of it is a mixture of mixed up events and periods.
i dont need to remember my last drink ...i need to remember whom keeps me from the next one.....