forgot to answer your question...noppers...i don't have a clue what 'Ephotozine' is. ? lol
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just a quick note. i only got a few hours sleep and worked for nearly 9 hours straight painting 6 apartments with 3 other girls. pay is horrid, but i'm tired of not going to a job on a regular basis and it's only a 2-week temp thing anywho.
i slept straight thru bootcamp this morning. i have a dozen alarms on my cell to help get me up, but none of them help if i leave it on vibrate!! dang me. i woke up and saw it was starting to get a little light outside and knew i'd already missed the entire workout.
oh well, all is not lost. tomorrow is suppose to be a day off for us, but the instructors are still meeting for a workout and they said i can join them to make up for missing today.
then i have to drive straight to the painting job....45 minute drive and hopefully put in another 9 or even 10 hours if i'm not too worn out.
i'm totally exhausted at the moment...which i knew i'd be.
i got back into town around 7 p.m., rented a couple DVD's and grabbed some healthy food and headed home....changed clothes...answered a knock at the door from neighbor asking if i have a mouse trap he can use...ate my lunch/dinner....guzzled a cold bottle of water....and watched a movie.
The movie just finished and it was totally stupid "Ciaos Theory"... it was slow and stupid and the artsy/fartsy cinematography got annoying after about 45 minutes (but did at least give me a new idea to try on one of my next art images....lol)
i was about to go to sleep, but wanted to get on the computer for a moment. it's too weird (these days) only having 2 hours of the day to relax/enjoy before seriously needing to head off to sleep. That use to be my norm, but has become the opposite since being on unemployment for a year now.
anyway....the lady i'm painting for is a certified nutritionist and she is helping to teach me more about healthy eating and what is good, bad and ugly. lol so that is an added bonus.
man....my alarm is going to start going off in 6.5 hours and even tho i'm about to fall asleep sitting up...i'm wanting to watch the other movie i have.
also...i'm stressing from not having time/energy to prepare for tomorrow before going to sleep. i need to find some workout clothes to wear and figure out what pants i can wear tomorrow that i won't mind getting paint all over.
and i need to pay bills and all sorts of things. oh well.
i also have had a headache all day from too little sleep.
and been having more thoughts today of the guy i had to drop from my life recently....not sure why, but they are not welcome thoughts and yesterday was my absolute deadline that if he would have called me and told me he wanted a real relationship i might still have considered it. So now i need to work harder on keeping my thoughts off him. (another added benefit of working tons of hours over the next 2 weeks....little time to think! However....painting with white paint for 9 hours is about the most boring thing so i start having a bit of anxiety issues. Today...i just kept wanting to take a smoke break every hour....took me 1/2 the day to figure out that was b/c i was bored and needing more mental activity).
Anyway. I'm determined to lose AT LEAST 10 pounds during this 2nd month of bootcamp. If so...then i will officially be back under 200 pounds - which hasn't been the case since i lost a bunch of weight during my major depression around 2005-06 (which i slowly gained back until this most previous episode. I'd gotten down to 180 back then and around the time i started shock treatments last year i was around 239 - my highest ever!)
So...i'm determined to keep myself from not only putting that 30 pounds back on, but continueing to keep losing and get under that 200 mark that i hate so much!
Next goal will be to get back to 180, then if i can ever get back down to 150-160 AND maintain that....i will be happy as a clam!
way past my stupid bedtime...
Jenna