Hi Hudstar,
Good on you for posting your challenges
You don't have to listen to that "voice" tell that voice something else or put in a different tape as they say. Drive by that liquor store & see what it feels like, tell yourself that you might go later but that you are going to try not to.
Do anything & say anything to yourself not to pick up. Do you have a good list together of why you are quitting? It might be good if you did so you could pull it out before you go into the shop (in your wallet is also good).
So sorry to hear that you are struggling with this sickness, it is a horrible feeling to live with. Give it a real fight this time out ok? Its worth it I promise you.
Take Care,
NB