Yes mcdog I do get down on myself quite a bit. Which is why the "tough love" approach has never helped me and only made me feel worse. I reduced my beer intake to 0 but have continued to take my Klonopin as the doc prescribed.
Many that post to me love to bash and criticize me. The truth is I know more about sobriety then them. I simply just don't use what I know. I have been to treatment between 5-7 times. Sometimes court ordered and sometimes on my own. I've sat through hundreds of AA meetings and thats why I feel that AA somehow owes me. AA since 2004 and I'm still drunk yeah thats quite a success story! Maybe they can put my story in the next Big Book edition!
Mr. Tiburon