Thanks Dan,
I am a little better than when I PM'd you. Im not sure how many of those frame of minds I can handle. It was actually the Non-value page I viewed earlier that jolted me back to reality. Maybe it did have some use. It made me angry to the point that I remembered why I came here in the first place.
I deleted my post on that page before I say your reply. Maybe I should not have. It's like everything else right now. I just dont know crap. I read the post on paws and it looks like thats pretty much where I am at. That REALLY depresses me but at least there is some logical explanation. When I thought there was none, I lost hope. I am having breakfast with a friend of mine in the morning(Dr of Psychology) and I have a Dr appnt with my MD in the afternoon. (Why do I know so many doctors and I am just an eng who cant seem to put one foot in front of the other anymore)
Thanks for all your insight and help. Im not going to drink tonight or go near a gun :wink2:
Thanks
-----J