Originally Posted by
adore79 
It was amazing how fast my AV took over my thinking, and it is scary how I was in little ways planning a relapse for at least a week before without being completely concious of it. Cunning and baffling as they say....
Adore~
Thanks for your commitment and your honesty. It is simply amazing how we plan these things without even acknowledging what we are up to. When I last picked up a bottle, I remember that I felt like two distinct people inhabiting one body: the watcher and the do-er.
In hindsight, I had planned it all down to the letter. I took care of x, y and z and then I went and bought alcohol. Unfortunately, this took me on a downhill slide that lasted almost four months. I am grateful that you were able to stop much sooner.
It's great that you utilized your connections on SR. It can make all the difference.