Hey rerun, welcome...
McGowdog has a really good approach to Step One, He may be along soon... He said earlier...
To be an alcoholic, it's simple
Can't control the amount you drink once the craving is activated; some say that's usually two or more drinks.
Can't stay stopped based on what's right, necessary, prudent, etc.
The hard drinker can match the alcoholic drink for drink and even get locked up and/or die before their time; but in the end, they can stop or moderate given a sufficient reason.
But he doesn't make it easy... simple, yes, easy, no. Nor should it be.
You have to find your own truth, nobody can tell you that you are an alcoholic. We can tell you what it was like for us, our experience.
What's yours?
Mark