Hello friends
I'm sorry to say that I relapsed on friday, over something small and stupid that frustrated me and I went in the blink of an eye from not thinking about drinking to buying beer in the store.
Later that night I called a good friend from here at SR and he helped me pour most of the beer down the sink, and boy was that hard! But, it turned what could have been a terrible night and morning into only a slight hangover.
It is time for me to revisit the first step and powerlessness. It was amazing how fast my AV took over my thinking, and it is scary how I was in little ways planning a relapse for at least a week before without being completely concious of it. Cunning and baffling as they say....
All I can say is, if you get to that point where you are going to buy something, call someone, talk to someone, it really makes a difference.
Much Love to you all