You said it all! my only brother just died june2nd of heroin overdose, and the excuses!!!!!!!!! i miss him, nothing else...i miss when he was kind and generous and oh so loving to me and my kids...I had him with me 3 months b4 he died. everyday was a new a excuse!!! i adored and admired him. i hope u r doing well!! just text me if u r ever lonely, i will listen!! Sedra hugs many hugs and prayers