Thanks Haunted!
For the most part, things have been going pretty great. I've always read how regular excersize helps with depression and such, but i've been soooo out of shape for about 10 years now that the thought of working out 6-7 days a week was something i thought impossible.
i've tried over the years to motivate my girlfriends and co-workers to go walking with me a few times a week and sometimes several of us were able to keep it up for several weeks or so...but then we'd slowly drop away from it.
i really think the "Operation Bootcamp" program i've been in for a month now is literally going to change my life. It's been hell....especially week 1 and this 4th week, but i've improved substantially in my ability to keep up with the non-obese participants.
I nearly quit wednesday....actually i gave up 30 minutes into an intense job/truck pushing workout. i couldn't keep up with the group pushing the truck up the hill....my body just wouldn't let me run any more and even walking was pushing it. The trainer kept trying to push me, but that only made it worse b/c no matter how hard i tried i was about a block behind everyone else.
i finally sat down on the side of the road and said "i quit" and was bawling so hard i could barely make myself keep trying to breath. After about 2 minutes of sobbing i got back up and pushed some more. By then, they were coming back down the hill with the truck and they told me to grab onto the side with some of the others. i kept up with the truck for about 1/2 a block and then the speed of it going downhill had it too fast for me to keep up. AT THE SAME TIME, the physical trainer who was driving the truck....got too close to the curb and we were about to all collide.
i let go and tried to jump over the curb to get out of the way so i wouldn't be run over. i tripped...and fell and someone behind me came crashing down ontop of me.
at that point i sat up and said, "i can't f---ing do this anymore!"
at that point the main trainer parked his truck at the bottom of the hill and left it running to come back to me and push me to keep going. everyone else jogged the 1/2 mile back to the parking lot we started in to do the final core excersizes.
i don't know how i made it back to the parking lot, but i hated it. mostly i can't handle not being able to keep up with everyone....even the girl who is as out of shape as i am!!! usually i'm a few steps ahead of her or at least right with her....but that day she was running circles around me some how! (we had a very painful strengthing workout the day before and i'd literally limped around all day and night b/c my calf muscles hurt just to lift or bend my leg. i asked her that morning if she'd been hurting and she said no so i'm betting that she hadn't pushed herself to hold the strength training positions the day before that had killed my legs.....or something. lol)
Anyway......long story, but the main trainer said that he definetly wants me to do at least 2 more months and since this first month was on trade (i didn't have to pay the $150 monthly fee in exchange for publicity photos).....well he said i can write a couple of press releases and take some family photos for him as a trade for the next two months worth.
so i'm super happy about that
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i'm still sore from the fall to the curb, but FINALLY my energy level has started increasing and i'm actually starting to FEEL in better shape.
my clothes are fitting a little better and my mom said she can definetly tell i am losing inches. i've only lost 2 pounds so i've been a bit bummed about that since i couldn't tell that i'd really lost any inches....but i also know that i'm building lots of muscles (soooo many that i didn't even know i had) and that muscle ways more than fat.
so....i'm actually loooking forward to month 2 of bootcamp!!!! Hooyah!!
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