Hello and welcome to the Sober Recovery community.
i hope that you attend alot of A.A. meetings and find
those there who will offer their love and support daily.
Becoming part of a fellowship of recovering alcoholics is
taking an active part in something greater than myself.
"i can't, we can", has been the motto that helps me to
stay sober and clean. Also directs me to help another!
A book you might find very insightful is called, 'Living Sober'.
Just ask anyone at a meeting if they can provide it to you.