Hmm, helps me to think about the fact that I don't want to be a normal drinker...when I am drinking, I want to get more or less insanely drunk. It was that way from Day 1, and while I was able to go against those urges for a little while (15 years), eventually I was drawn in by the tractor beam of my natural instincts.
I didn't "screw up" by becoming an alcoholic. I was an alcoholic who masqueraded as a normal drinker for close to two decades, and who hurt a lot of people and myself in the process.
This is a better way for someone like me to live, I think.