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Old 08-06-2009, 06:11 AM
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FightingIrish
problem with authority
 
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Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Washington, DC
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Doing service can be fraught with potential resentments if I am not careful. My group has recently committed to taking outgoings out to other groups and halfway houses and such. It always feels like I am one of a handful raising my hand. Tonight for instance I am having great difficulty finding anyone with more than a year of sobriety who is willing to go speak for ten minutes at this halfway house commitment. My ego gets in the way often (as you can see) and then I start judging others and quickly become a bleeding deacon (is that possible with 23 months??) My black and white mind see two options: be a martyr or decide that I'm not going to be the only doing anything so thus don't raise my hand for a year. (Actually, both qualify me for martyrdom...)
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