Sweetie,
You don't have to tell us the details if you don't feel comfortable, I know how hard that is.
But it is really important to speak to a trained counsellor at the crisis centre.
When I was raped at 15 I made the huge mistake of thinking I could deal with it by myself and didn't tell anyone for 12 years. I was too scared to tell my parents as I thought they would think it was my fault, I was so wrong. Not telling anyone really screwed me up and is the main reason I am an addict now. I don't want that happening to you.
If you can't tell your parents you still need to tell someone as well as the crisis centre. I know you said earlier that you didn't feel like there was an adult in your life you could trust but there MUST be someone, read back through your thread, there are some great suggestions of who you could try talking to.
I've PMd you, you don't have to reply to me if you don't want to.
Just please post when you next check your thread and let us know how you are doing.
So many of us care so much about you.
Most importantly - NOTHING THAT HAPPENED WAS YOUR FAULT!
Much love,
Kel x