Originally Posted by
HideorSeek 
I don't know why, but AA is changing for me. Ever since I got my new sponsor, I feel as if I am on the inside of AA, not on the outside looking in. I can't really explain it, becasue I don't understand it myself, but it feels good and right and I, too, am VERY, VERY grateful. I feel a new calmness...a new acceptance...that whatever happens, it is happening for a reason. It's like I'm in a rushing river and instaed of fighting to stay afloat, or determine my direction, or think about what's happening, I'm just relaxing and going with the current. Again, I can't explain it very well.
You just described what has happened to me over the last 7 weeks!
After I last drank, I got a new sponsor (who is great) and started the steps again....I sort of started AA and recovery again. For the first time I feel fully part of AA, not on the periphery.
I have a new calmness too, going with some kind of flow....a flow that I know is going in the right general direction.
Something just clicked and I am so grateful for it.
