Vintersemestre

Yeah I am... just like other people take antidepressants. Did you know my spine is also basically broken in three places? Did you know that for whatever reason my system doesn't develop a tolerance to the nocioceptive or psychological effect of the drug? Did you know that traditional antidepressants like Paxil and Effexor have a much more toxic effect on the brain? Do you know I've been taking the same dose without altering it for nigh on six years (actually it was slightly lowered recently from 40mg to 20mg because my pain isn't as severe) and it's totally changed my life for the better?

There are a multitude of articles from psychiatric journals detailing the positive therapeutic effects of chronic low doses of opioids in individuals who don't respond to other treatments, couple this with the fact that I don't experience tolerance, nor a "high", with my medical history of severe melancholic depression that is refractory to every treatment (short of surgery and induced seizures, which I won't put myself through).

Every aspect of opioid therapy has been a positive force in my life. If I take my medication I am not psychotic, depressed, anxious, bordering on being thrown in the loonie bin, it has not once caused me to mutilate myself, waste money, destroy relationships, be violent, masochistic, sadistic, destructive or murderous (yes). In fact it negates all of this behaviour which is the product of a defective endorphin system, which oxycodone is the best treatment for. There are a team of doctors that look after me and they've all been amazed at the therapeutic effect this drug has on me.

I'm sure if many had there way I'd be forced to ingest poisons like Venlafaxine and become psychotic again. But I'm sure that's preferable right? Maybe I should just be loaded up with Thorazine and put in a straight jacket drooling out of a window for the rest of my life instead of living the fulfilling, happy life I am now.