I am on day 9 following a slip up, choice to drink, relapse, whatever the label. Today the thought of having a beer subtly entered my mind and it sounded so good! This scares the hell out of me because I know what would happen if I start. I remembered the last drinking episode and chose not to drink, but those uncontrollable thoughts are scarry since I am so vulnerable and powerless over the drink. Any advice on countering the thoughts? Sometimes my AA sponsor nor a meeting is always available at that very moment
The best way I found to counter the thoughts was to read or post here Rochadad, and to learn that a thought is not a directive.
I was amazed when I learnt this because it never occurred to me in 20 years to ignore an urge.
I know now we can think thoughts and feel feelings - and not follow through on them.
It's not a pleasant experience but we can sit through them - and the sky does not fall in.
hang in there!
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