I went back out for the exact same reasons as you. My kids went to see their Grandparents for the weekend and I'm pretty fresh from a divorce, which put me by my lonesome. Yup, depression and boredom were definitely triggers and before I knew it, I was off and running. But, after all was said and done, as I was sitting on my couch crying and wondering how It happened, I realized I would trade depression and boredom in for the hell I went through in a heartbeat. I didn't get beat up physically, but internally I got my butt kicked pretty bad. We need to not forget what we are (addicts) anytime the urge comes on, because it never fails (At least for me)...we don't stop and eventually end up worse than what we thought was miserable in the first place. It does get better bro! Learn from the experience and keep moving forward.