Originally Posted by
dabears34 
I'm dreaming of getting a traveller of JD in the AM, then heading to a hotel near a bar and just going crazy for a few days til I eventually break down in tears and call my friends/sister/mom/etc and beg them to pull me out of the pit and get me home... ugh, I really don't like this, I wish I could just be fine going about life in a normal way, but I can't, never could....
You really don't like this? Then be kind to yourself and don't put yourself through the pain and the shame again.
The fact that you are talking about how you are feeling and not just going out and doing it is a great sign. You're reaching out for help so I feel that deep down you feel that going on a bender is not a good choice for you to make.
Yes you can and never say never.
Wishing you strength and love, :praying