Hi joedris.
I used to think that i was able to quit, and as u say 'flirted' with the idea of continuing to drink.
Stand back and seperate what you INTEND your behaviour to be while drinking as oppossed to what the formbook says about your behaviour when u drink.
Looking at your past when u drank will not lie. Looking forward to what your intentions are when you drink, you will most likely lie and lie at every oppertunity to yourself.
I fought and fought with this for years. Now I realise that I am completely helpless when it comes to trying to limit my drinking.
Free will disappears like tears in the rain when I drink alcohol.
Get back when you answer this question honestly. I am only 2 months sober (YAY) and feel the benefits. But it is more than just feeling the benefits. It is the difference between life and death.