hello haggaard and welcome.i am a 36 yr old alcoholic woman.7 months ago i thought my life was destined to end in a mental institution,suicide or a hideous painful death.not so today,i went to the fellowship of AA.at first i just listened as much as i could to the similarites and took peoples phones numbers and used them.now i am on the 12step recovery programme and my life is wonderful,i have no craving for alcohol at all (this went quickly!) and the obsession has been lifted from me also.i barely give alcohol a thought.from someone like me that was in the state i was in to go to how i am today is a miracle.recovery is there for you if you truly want it.i wish you the very best.