Hi Haggard,
I felt just like you in that the thought of living without alcohol terrified me... The best thing is that you made it here and I hope you'll stick around. There are lots of people who can identify with how you're feeling to help you through this.
My biggest help EVER has been A.A.'s philosophy of "One day at a time"... I do my best not to dwell on "the rest of my life", and I only worry about not drinking today. It's really had a profound effect on how I view sobriety and it makes it more okay for me.
Glad you're here,
s