Welcome to the family. It's amazing you lived to tell the tale, after all that devastation. You've found your way out, though - be proud of yourself for that. I was just starting down my path of destruction at around your age - went on for decades more. You are avoiding all the chaos and tragic events that many of us have gone through - I envy you that!
Please keep posting and let us know how it's going for you. We're in your corner.