i cant imagine a life without alcohol, it scares me, but i think im going to end up killing myself and that scares me even more
“He cannot picture life without alcohol. Some day he will be unable to imagine life either with alcohol or without it. Then he will know loneliness such as few do. He will be at the jumping-off place. He will wish for the end.”
(“Alcoholics Anonymous”, the book, 1st. Edition.. page 152)
Hi Haggard as you can see from the quote from the book alcoholics anonymous......you are not alone.,
There is much help here and there will be much support. I use AA and the 12 steps. That is my experience. I am free from alcohol for a long time now and my life is not fear based anymore. life is good. I hope you keep posting. you have made a start here.