Without surrendering completely and becoming willing to follow direction,
sadly, this pattern of attitudes and actions will probably be repeated until,
in utter desperation, you ask for help in finding a new way to live your life.
Our literature, A.A. or N.A., is very specific about the progression
of this disease and the result of trying to run our lives on self-will.
i hope that, at some point, you find the freedom to make a decision
to begin a procees of recovery instead of just settling for abstinance.