Originally Posted by
NewHorizon25 
It would'nt be so bad if i actually felt like doing things or had things to fill my day with. Im also unhappy with living at home with my parents, i find they can be negative for me in large doses.
Unmitigated bullsh*t. Sorry, but that's what it is. Try doing recovering as a thing to fill your day. Those thoughts in your head right are not reality. They may seem real to you, but they are not reality.
It comes down to this. You are on the verge of drinking promptly after getting out of rehab. What lengths are you willing to go to in order to avoid that? If you're not willing to even make a phone call, there is not much that anybody can do to help you.
It is now entirely up to you. What are you willing to do, right now, today?