You're 25, you live with your parents, you think you 'may relapse a few times', and you can't cope being in rehab with others.
Please - look in the mirror, and ask yourself where your thinking has got you so far?
My friend - you appear to know a lot about what won't work for you, but not too much about what will work.
My suggestion is to thank the good Lord you have a roof over your head, thank your parents for caring, and then explain earnestly to your parents that you appreciate them being 'on your back', because you are facing a life & death situation you clearly haven't been able to get a handle on by yourself.
After that honest admission, ask them for their permission to continue living there while you go to 90 AA/NA meetings in 90 days and concentrate 100% on your recovery. Ask them if there are any work or projects you can do for them during your free time too.
Be humble... be grateful... be honest... make your recovery work this time.
This is a very serious matter, a matter of life & death.
We all have another relapse within us... but we don't all have another recovery.
