Bluemoon,
You're grieving the loss of the relationship. And while it hurts like hell, it's actually a healthy process to go through. Unless you grieve it and work through your feelings, there's no going onto the next step.
And you're talking about how you feel here, so you're not stuffing as much as you think you are.
Believe me when I tell you that you are going to get beyond this. It just doesn't feel that way right now.
Vent when you need to. Getting it out is better than keeping it in.
Hugs,
Gabe