i know exactly how you feel my friend
a friend who live a few houses down from us sister died suddenly
i went to the wake afterwards and every one was pizzed
but to be honest i looked at them all and was so glad i was not drinking
mates sneaking off to do coke in the tiolets etc
talking crap,being boring,threatening to kill each other
i had a great time ,for every person who says that you are boring now you are sober i bet there is 50 who wish they could stop drinking
well done to you
