Originally Posted by
keithj 
Scared is OK. Being honest about it is great. I think that not only have I been in that boat, but that almost every alcoholic early in sobriety has been in that boat.
The boat is, I've got some time away from my solution to life (alcohol), but I don't have any other solution to life. The thrill is gone, so to speak, and life starts feeling real heavy again.
This is a boat that almost everyone here has been in. Look around this place. Notice what people are doing to stay sober. Evaluate who is staying sober. Take note of everyone else who is sober for a few months and goes back out drinking for the same feelings you express.
The one thing you didn't mention in talking about meetings and a sponsor is taking any steps. The question, as it always is, is what step are you on? It's in those steps that I found a solution to life without alcohol. It wasn't in meetings, or socializing, or a job, or some stuff, but in those steps that I found freedom from myself so that I could fully participate in life.
I do see what other ppl do to stay sober, but why can't i do it now? I
was doing it, and it honestly made sobriety
that much easier. I'm just not sure why i fell off my streak of wanting to do this..is the only solution to just suck it up and get back out there? Maybe that will refresh my brain again that this is what i need, the longer i stay away the worse i'm getting and it's only been 6 days!
With steps, i completed the 1st step with my sponsor, that's all so far but now i'm looking for a new sponsor. In accepting that my life is unmanageable and that im powerless over these substances/alcohol, that has helped me thus far and is helping me not drink even though i'm not going to meetings. I know where this has taken me.
i feel like im going in circles , sorry :l