If you can, stop helping him to bed, to the car, stop helping him with walking. One thing that helps me is I keep reminding myself: Do not do for anyone what they are old enough and capable to do for themself.
I agree, can you go to Al-Anon?
i asked god to make sleep for good but God doesn't love me enough to kill me
GOD DOES LOVE YOU!!!!! Don't think that way! We ALL love you here, too! Do you have family close by? Can you go to the doctor and tell the doctor how you are feeling? I think you may have depression so you should see a doctor. Is there anyone in your community you can ask for help?